Desire To Care

Desire To Care - Reflection

Paradise in turmoil,

Organised Chaos.

A battlefield of emotion,

Control without controls.


A wilderness in Time,

Floods of tears.

Acres of happiness,

Eyes that sparkle.


Such joy and glee,

Contrast unremitting pain.

Thoughts chasing through trees,

Dodging, never crashing.


Turn around and see me,

Hear my voice, Touch me.

You are my everything,

My swift footsteps without movement.


With billowing hair you observe,

Lips that shame blood.

Like a river with gracious curves,

Beauty rivalled only by your reflection.


Needs to desires,

Desires untamed in the hunt,

Love flowing from the source,

Snow without the cold.


Richard Taylor

June 1999


© 1999 Mr Richard M Taylor.


Happy Christmas!

Happy Christmas to all readers of the RMTWeb Blog. This is my first year away from home, and I am currently working on Christmas day at The Cottage Hotel & Restaurant (lucky me). I have to be there in one hours time to get things ready for Christmas day dinners, so just enough time to post this Christmas message.

Merry Christmas!


This year has been quite an adventure, with starting Brunel University in West London and having what feels like a full-time job as a waiter at the same time is exhausting. I’ve been doing a lot less programming in my Computer Science degree than I was expecting, in fact we did a lot more programming on my tec course. I’ve learned a lot of HTML which is really useful, and I’ve been using it to migrate all my old diary entries from floppy disk over from text-only format in to HTML pages.


by Hilaire Belloc (1870-1953)

When George’s Grandmamma was told
That George had been as good as gold,
She promised in the afternoon
To buy him an Immense BALLOON.
And so she did; but when it came,
It got into the candle flame,
And being of a dangerous sort
Exploded with a loud report!
The lights went out! The windows broke!
The room was filled with reeking smoke.
And in the darkness, shrieks and yells
Were mingled with electric bells,
And falling masonry and groans,
And crunching, as of broken bones,
And dreadful shrieks, when, worst of all,
The house itself began to fall!
It tottered, shuddering to and fro,
Then crashed into the street below –
Which happened to be Savile Row.

When help arrived, among the dead
Were Cousin Mary, Little Fred,
The Footmen (both of them), the Groom,
The man that cleaned the Billiard-Room,
The Chaplain, and the Still-Room Maid.
And I am dreadfully afraid
That Monsieur Champignon, the Chef,
Will now be permanently deaf –
And both his aides are much the same;
While George, who was in part to blame,
Received, you will regret to hear,
A nasty lump behind the ear.

RMTWeb is born

As many great names do, the creating of the name RMTWeb was a complete fluke.

I have a brand new Pentium 200MMX computer a staggeringly huge 2.5Gb hard disk and a 16 speed CD-ROM Drive! In addition this amazing computer has 32Mb of RAM and a large 15″ CRT monitor! This super machine also has a modem and allows me to connect to the Internet using AOL!

The first account I signed up for gave me a horrid username – rtaylo4382. After enduring this name for the past year and a half I decided that things would have to change. I’ve been searching and searching for a new screen name, then by accident I decided to try my initials which was denied as it was too short – I was keen on designing my own web pages so I added the word “web” after my initials. The name was accepted and thus my first proper email address – [email protected] was born!

—Later editors notes–

I then set about registering every variant of rmtweb online for the next 5 years or so. Most notably I used  [email protected] and the blogging site which is where this blog was originally hosted until I moved it on to my own domain.

I used my AOL email address and kept the screen name until 1999 when I decided to get my own domain name –, and “proper” email address ([email protected]). It has been running ever since! As a result of having an email address that has been around for such a long time, I regularly get in excess of 2000 items of spam every day.

Re-installed the computer

I’ve ended up having to re-install the computer from scratch after I was trying out commands from in the DOS manual and accidentally used Deltree /Y and forgot to specify a folder to delete, so it deleted everything from the root of the C drive.

Thankfully the disks used to install it were in the disk boxes on the top shelf of the computer desk so I have managed to re-install MS-DOS and Windows and the games and almost everything else. Hopefully no-one else will notice anything different, and at least all our files are stored on disks so we didn’t loose any of my homework or Dads work.